Where did I go wrong?

I consumed at least 10-12 cups of water a day. I ate my points and wrote everything down every day. I didn't eat all my flexpoints. I gained 2 fricken pounds, people!

Trying to figure it out. Talked to the lady who weighed me and she gave me some ideas.

~I'm maybe eating too much at night. Its probably not right that I have 6-8 points left at night, AFTER I eat dinner.

~Need. More. Exercise. I only exercised once this last week. I helped Chris mow the law, and only mowed for 15-20 minutes.

~I need to mix up my food a bit more. Every day I eat the same salad for lunch. Mixed greens, imitation crabmeat and homemade wheat croutons with light italian dressing.

So, I need to get back to basics. I was so frustrated and let down by my weight gain. I thought maybe my scale here at home was broken, since it was showing me up for the week. But alas, it was right. It just doesn't make sense though. I must have done something, and gaining 2 pounds might have happened if I splurged for a few days, which I did not.

I could analyze it to death but it wouldn't bring me any closer to what happened. I just need to move on.

The greatest part of my weigh-in was realizing that the woman that weighed me in, is going through training to be a leader! And this woman is sooo nice. And not boring like our leader we have now. And since our current leader lives 45 min. away, I'm hoping this woman-in-training becomes our new leader down the road. It would really help!

So, my goals for this week.

1. Write down everything I put in my mouth. Including the fried seafood I ate last night!
2. Continue to drink all my water
3. Do WATP at least 3 times this week. Or take a bike ride. Or take a walk.
4. Mix up my foods a bit. Try something different for lunch.
5. Try,try,try, NOT to step on the scale.
6. Write down my menu in advance and only leave 2-3 points for after dinner.

I actually even went to my Weight Watchers chart and input all my info for the last 3 months. Let's just say, even though I was expecting the wavy horizontal line, it IS supposed to be going DOWN.
Very frustrating.

Go figure

Even though I have drank at least 10-12 cups of water today, my ankles are still swollen.

Damn humidity.

Eating is going well. Because of the heat, I haven't felt like eating during the day and end up with between 6-8 points left to eat after dinner. Need to work on that one. I don't want to eat too much at night, but still want enough points left to have a few snacks after the kids go to bed.

Not sure what the scale has been because of my swelling and the humidity. But, I think since I've been following my points so far this week, as long as I keep it up, I'll see some sort of loss on Saturday.

I'm going to work out tomorrow....probably the WATP 3 mile dvd. I'm also going to buy some 5 pounds weights too so that I can do my weight routine at home. The last thing I want to do is lose muscle instead of fat!

Anyway, that was a whole bunch of randomness.

Only 2 more OP days!

So far, so good

Its weird, I don't really want to eat. I've only used 5 flexpoints, and it seems that if the week is going to go like the last 2 days, I'm going to need to force myself to eat a bit more.

Another weird thing. We went to the beach today with my sister and brother-in-law, and I stepped on her WW scale. It said I was 174.6! There's no way I could have lost almost 2 pounds in one day, so I don't know whats up with that. I did get my period today so maybe that could be involved, who knows.

I went by myself to the mall on Saturday night and on my way home stopped at Borders. I splurged and bought myself Tales from the Scale after hearing many good things about it. I started reading it last night and so far so good! Its really a great book....very honest, and I can relate to almost everything written. I'll finish reading it and let everyone know how it was!

Otherwise, not much going on. Going to try to exercise twice this week....lol For the next few days the temps are going to be hot and humidity high, so I might wait till Wednesday to start.

And as always (well, most of the time) I'm going to stay OP this week! I need a 3rd week loss!

Saturday Weigh-in

Lost 2 lbs this week! I knew I had a loss and it feels so good. Normally during the week, by Wednesday I'm losing my "following points" power. Almost to the point where I don't care what I eat. But this week during those last few days of the week, I wrote little pieces of encouragement on the top of my journal. Phrases like "you can do it", and "stay OP today!" and "only 1 day left, you can do it"

Sounds corny, I know, but whatever works! And it worked!

So now I've had 2 weeks where I've consistently lost. And I'm aiming for a 3rd. I'm taking this one week at a time, one day at a time. For today I focus on today. I don't let myself get down by thinking how many days I have left in the week, or how many flexpoints I have for the week.

I've also found that writing in advance what I'm going to eat helps. I've even gone as far as to write down the times I can eat. Keeps me from grazing. Keeps me from the mindless snacking that one does when they're bored, or tired, or pms'ing, which I think is this week. I also ended up using all of my flexpoints for the week as well. I'm going to try using them all again this week to see if my body just needs more food and not less.

We'll see if I can do this for week 3. Maybe if I keep this up I can get into the 160's by the end of the summer!

Weight today: 176.2

I weigh-in tomorrow. Can't wait for a new week to start! Hopefully I can make it through today without binging on something.

Wish me luck!

2 days till weigh-in

I've been doing pretty well this week. I had a little run-in with dried fruit last night, but did write it down, who knows if it was accurate or not. But the point is that I acknowledged that I actually ate it.

Scale is showing me at around 176. That would mean if its right I'm down 2 pounds so far this week. Its not just about the number on the scale, but I feel confident that I've been OP all week, and feeling healthy, and its positive to see the changes on the scale. Thats all.

I did the 3-mile WATP dvd yesterday. Emilie joined me and I actually only logged on 2 miles because the little ones started fighting so I had to stop. Emilie made it all 3 miles though...I'm so proud of her! She's been getting a little bit on the chubby side, and I'm hoping that encouraging her to exercise and eat healthy will be a good thing in the long run. The last thing I want to happen is for her to become an overweight adult and these days of obesity it could happen too easily.

I'm going to try to do the dvd again today. We'll see though, its depends if I'm motivated or not. Still feeling sick, still congested, so it all depends how well I can breathe later on too.

One day at a time

God help me, but I want to eat. And eat, and eat, and eat. I'm not satisfied it seems with what I'm eating all day. I just want more! Maybe I'm pms'ing?

Last night I almost lost it. It was midnight and I looked for a snack, had a snack, and then looked for something else. I'm still within points for the week, still have flexies left for the week, but its only Wednesday. I will not mess up this week. I refuse. I'm just working on today. I'm not thinking about the rest of the week. I'm trying to refocus and eat healthy. And mostly I am. The possibility is there that I might be eating too many veggies, but really, can a person eat too many veggies?

My garden is starting to produce yellow squash and zucchini and I ate a huge bowl of it last night with dinner. That was on top of 2-3 cups of lettuce in my salad for lunch. But its either the veggies or the snacks.

I stepped on the scale this morning and its showing me the same weight as weigh-in on Saturday. I'm trying not to let that get me down. Its very possible that the scale will show a loss by tomorrow or Friday. I'm trying to use all my flexpoints this week just to see what happens. Ideally I should be able to lose weight when I eat them all. But I still haven't exercised this week. The humidity broke overnight but its still hot outside, so I won't be exercising outside today. I'm thinking of popping in my WATP dvd and at least doing some of it this morning. And then since Chris only works half a day today, maybe I'll get my bike out and take a bike ride tonight when the sun goes down.

In the meantime, its one day at a time. I want to get to goal eventually, and its not going to happen unless I focus and lose this weight!

Weigh-in

So this week, I managed to lose! 1.2 pounds, thank you very much..lol Actually it had to be due to the fact that I barely ate anything for the past few days, because earlier in the week, eating half a pineapple upside down cake, not in one sitting, of course, and eating at least 6 pieces of tuna pie along with cupcakes and cake and tortilla chips, etc.....yeah, the scale was showing me being 183-184ish earlier in the week, and this morning I weighed in at 178.2!

Really though, considering my lowest was 171.8, I think, I'm kinda far off. But I've started my week off good. Chris and I along with Molly ate dinner over at Jen and Roman's tonight and I counted every single morsel that went into my mouth. And only used 8 flexpoints. Not a bad start anyway. Tomorrow I'll do my weekly shopping and stock up on all sorts of healthy foods to get me through the week.

The only thing I need to figure out now is the exercise part! Although its not 100 degrees here or anything (only in the upper 70's, lower 80's since we're right on the coast) the humidity is oppressive. And I'm sick and I have asthma.... not a good mix. So... I'm concentrating on the eating part this week and then hopefully at least start on my WATP dvd's. Thats better than nothing!

the way to go

After eating leftover b-day food the majority of the week, I caught a cold. From my husband, isn't he sweet?

I'm pretty sick...can't breath from my nose or my mouth. (sinuses and chest) One side effect of this, is that I haven't wanted to eat all day long. This is what I've had today:

2 cups coffee
sf jello pudding
half a strawberry milkshake (it was way too sweet, but I wanted something cold)
a few french fries (we took the kiddies to BK)

thats it! Along with a ton of water. I haven't been hungry, and the thought of eating while unable to breath has me passing on the food.

As much as I HATE being sick, maybe this is the way to drop a few pounds that I put on this week!

And starting Saturday, its a brand new week. And I WILL stay OP!

Birthday food

Yesterday was my birthday. I've been waiting, yet dreading this day. Dreading it because I'm another year older. Not old at 31, I know, but older than 21...LOL And then of course, the food. With all the holidays and birthdays (Molly's was on the 2nd) and all the cake and cookout food,I wanted to just get past it. I have absolutely no willpower when it comes to cake. My mom made me a few special dishes for yesterday as well. She used to cook all the time when we were kids and had some signature dishes. For my birthday she made me tuna pie. I think its something a person has to grow up with, because my kids didn't like it, but I love it! But it has tuna, eggs, olives, saltine crackers all smushed up.... its just awesome! Its one of those foods thats good either warm or cold. And then she made me a pineapple upside-down cake! My mother had me in tears! It just meant so much to me. I bawled my eyes out. I didn't need gifts, and didn't need a party, but to know my mom made me these foods that remind me of my childhood felt great! Needless to say, eating has been horrible. But, today is a new day. I ate so much crap yesterday that my stomach is all in knots, and have no interest in eating anything anymore. So, even though I'll have gained again this week, I'm at least starting off fresh. And then for the summer I'm home free! No more birthdays, no more picnics, no more holidays. Its free sailing from here, baby! (I'm going to need reminders that I said that!)

Just call me the human yo-yo

Let me get this clear though.....homemade salsa and chips is better than a oversized cupcake, right? I think so anyway!

Went to my meeting this yesterday and as I assumed, I was up. Again. No big surprise, right? I actually was down 3 pounds from last weeks weight, but only from my scale, not WW, because I chose not to weigh-in last week.

But today we had a picnic, for Chris' co-workers. We were expecting roughly 60 people, and only about 40-45 showed up, but it was all good. Except now we have all this extra food. Including hot dogs, hamburgers, chips, donuts, coffee cake, and huge,huge, cupcakes. I figure, because I was up at 8am this morning, and ran around all day cleaning and cooking and stuff, that I don't think I did too bad-eating wise. And I'm trying to be optimistic here when I say that I hope I burned a few calories with all the running around. I even played volleyball!

I have.to.get.on.track. Starting tomorrow, its back to the grind for me. Chris is home for vacation this week, so I'm going to try to walk every night.

I bought all these cute new summer clothes a few months ago when I was at my lowest weight. And even though I'm only about 7 pounds heavier, I don't feel comfortable in those new clothes. I know for me its a mindset, because technically I don't look any different. To other people, that is. For me, I look in the mirror and see disaster. I know its because I feel horrible with myself for screwing up these last weeks. When I eat healthy and drink my water and exercise, it shows. Not only in how I look but how I feel. And when I feel better inside, I see myself differently on the outside.

Makes sense, right?

I want to be at goal

And I'm so sick of this shit. Its so easy to gain the weight. So damn fricken hard to lose it.

Granted, I haven't been exercising, but I'm estimating that in the last few weeks I'm up a good 6-7 pounds. I'm been doing pretty good since Tuesday, which now that I think about it, was only YESTERDAY! Woo hoo, I'm doing awesome! *sarcasm, of course!*

Someone needs to slap me silly. I've lost 3 pounds in the last few days, most likely all water weight. I need to keep this going though, and thats the hardest part. I look at my weigh-in book, and realize that the week before Jen's wedding...around April 23rd..... I weighed roughly 171. The scale this morning said 180!

Its almost as if I'm afraid to get to goal. I'm scared of getting to goal and not being able to eat "good food" anymore. Heck, I lose more weight, and eventually I'll get down to 20 pts a day and I'm barely making it now on 22-24 pts a day.

I want to break the code of WW. Or something like that. I want to figure out how to optimize my weightloss. Do I use my flexpoints during the weekend and stick to my daily points the rest of the week? Do I spread the flexies throughout the week? Obviously I want to eat as much as I possibly can and still lose. No sense starving myself. And some people lose better using all their flexpoints, while some do better when they only use half.

If I could stay on program for more than 2 weeks in a row, I might be able to figure it out! It used to be 3 good weeks, 1 bad week. Now its more like 1 bad week, 1 good DAY, 2 bad weeks, 1 good week. I manage to lose most of what I gained, whether it takes me one or two weeks, I seem to get back on track, and then screw up again, and gain it all back again. I've been doing this for months! I can't stand it anymore. I need to snap out of it!

I can't help but remind myself that since my b-day last year, I've only lost 25 pounds. 25 pounds in 1 YEAR!! Okay, I admit, better than nothing, and I'm losing it slowwww and all, but WW is getting a ton of $$ from me. I've been going to meetings since Feb '04. Roughly $12 a week. I'm not even going to attempt to calculate it. Its just too much.

You think that would be a good motivator for me. To get to goal, get to lifetime, so that I don't have to pay anymore. Nope, not me.

I've GOT to get out of this rut and kick ass. Thats my point. Just how to do it?

Nothing catchy

Can never think of a catchy title. I also don't want to put the same title in everytime I post.

This past Saturday, I went to my WW meeting, but chose to use my "no weigh-in" pass. I figured I wouldn't have to see the scale go up, but could still benefit from the meeting. I do know that the scale was being extremely unkind.

And then to top it off, I ate way too much this weekend. Damn picnics. It just adds up way too fast. But, I did write everything down. And now its a fresh start. I've already had 8 cups of water and still have 15 pts left for the day. Maybe if I can make it through the week, I can get back on track. I also got back into the habit of buying the 10 pack of snack size milky ways. If I can get through the day OP, and still have points left, I allow myself one. It seemed to work for me months ago, so maybe it will now? Makes me feel not so deprived.

Have a great week!