10 min. stairstepper
20 min treadmill
30 min elliptical

And I've finally gotten the cold thats been circulating around the house for a few weeks. Better now than for the wedding, but that doesn't make the sinus pressure any easier to deal with!

And hey~ look to the right sidebar.... I finally have the guts to add my stats..... please be kind! LOL

Weekly weigh-in

So even though I didn't think I did so well this week, weigh-in was a surprise. Down 1.2.... I'll take it. It was just the motivation I needed! I also tried on my matron of honor dress, so thats a little bit extra motivation. I want it to be even bigger than it already is!

I've got a grueling schedule this week, but I'm determined to hit the gym at least 3 times. Depending on the weather, I might even walk the track while Molly is taking her ooey gooey class. My personal goal is still to lose 8 pounds by the wedding. Its not looking likely though... the wedding is in 4 weeks! All I can do is try ;)

Getting hard

Its now Friday and I exercised once this week. Thats it! Not really good enough for me, because I try to keep an average of 3x a week. That of course hasn't been happening because of sick kiddos, bridal showers, and appts. I've been very snacky this week too. I'm not hungry, just snacky. I try drinking water when I want to put something in my mouth, but its not diverting me. I haven't been horrible this week , and for the majority of the time I've written everything down, but I wouldn't be surprised if I just maintain again. But if I do even gain a little, I'm not going to let it deter me. Next week I will be doing the same thing. If Jen can lose slowly and keep with it, then so can I.

Weigh-in is tomorrow morning...I'll update again then. Have a great weekend!

No gym for me

Missed the gym today. And I missed my tanning. Molly has some sort of virus that's giving her a 104 temp. All my little girl has wanted to do is cuddle with me.

Eating is going okay though. Sticking to my points without a problem, but not keeping up with my water as well as I should. For the first time in literally months, my ankles have become all swollen again. I think it might be a combination of eating high salt food and not drinking enough water. So I'm guzzling it today. I'll be guzzling it tomorrow too.

One thing with drinking so much water though.... the bathroom trips. No sense even buttoning my jeans when I'm peeing every 5 minutes. It would be a big waste of water to flush every 5 minutes too. lol Then I try to stop drinking about 45 minutes before I go to work, because then I'm stuck on a schoolbus for 2 hours without a bathroom in sight. I'm screwed if I have to go then. Its times like that when I wish I wore depends. As gross as it would be to pee into a diaper, I wouldn't have to stop drinking water. LOL

Anyway, I'm excited for the rest of the week to be over. No school tomorrow or Friday, so I can sleep in and skip breakfast, therefore leaving me more points for the day. I'm not a breakfast person to begin with, but when my normal day starts at 5:30 am, I need to be careful about spreading my points out through a 17 hr day.

Now if I can only make it through Easter without binging on the kids Easter candy!

Feel the burn

Weigh-in this Saturday: +2

35 min. Elliptical
20 min. treadmill
45 min. weights

And I start tanning on Wednesday for the wedding!

Gym Time

Went back to the gym today. Had to promise myself only 1/2 hr cardio just to get myself there! But... I did 30 min elliptical and 25 minutes treadmill. And it felt good :)

I've had this weird pain in my left hip now for a couple of weeks. At first I thought I might have pulled something, which I could have, but its been coming and going. I think its time to go to the Dr. for it. Just to check it out. Today the pain was so bad after the gym I was limping. Its putting me in an extremely foul mood. (Either that or the PMS)

Eating well so far this week though. I've only used 8 flexpoints so far, and I don't freak out now when I see the "22 pts" written on the top of my journal. Probably because I know I can use a few flexies if I need to!

I need the weather to get warmer so I can go bike riding!

No weigh-in today

So I didn't weigh-in this morning. Its snowing once again...and to think spring is maybe 9 days away? I don't know, something like that.

Its just as well that I'm not weighing in because I had another not-so-good week. I can't seem to stick to my points for more than 3 weeks in a row. I was really sad about last weeks weigh-in. I mean, I should have lost weight, and my scale was showing that I did, yet I didn't. I even went as far as to weigh a few boxes of pasta, and the scale showed it was weighing correctly. Oh well though.

So this week I binged. Again. Last Saturday we had our family dinner which went really well, and even though I used the majority of my flexpoints, I wrote it all down. But then my sister brought pastries from a real Italian bakery, and I just had to try one. Who knows how many points it was! All it takes is that one incident to throw me off. Add to it, I'm down to 22 pts a day now, and it really freaks me out! I mean, if I had flexpoints to fall back on, I'd be okay, but I didn't. So I threw away the whole week. I figure I already blew it and I'm going to gain anyway, so I might as well enjoy it. I hate that though. I screw myself over. Instead of sticking to points for the rest of the week and gaining maybe a pound, I potentially gained a few pounds. Its a whole mindset thing for me. I don't know why though. The only thing I can do is pick up the pieces, yet again, and re-dedicate myself. And thats what I'm doing. I can't beat myself up for "messing up" because as we all know, none of us are perfect.

And its a learning experience. I seem to learn about overeating over and over again. I know I'll eventually get to goal. Its just getting there thats hard.

I didn't go to the gym even once this week! Why bother? Nevermind the fact that I had no time to go to the gym. Might be an excuse, might not. I could have MADE the time. I could have foregone shopping to get in my cardio. I could have put Molly in daycare to even get in a better than nothing workout. But I didn't. And it sucks. I'm so mad at myself. I wonder sometimes if I'm pressuring myself too much. Or not dedicated enough. But its getting old. I need to get to the point where exercise is automatic. I know it'll be easier once it gets a bit warmer. I can go on walks with the kids, and maybe even start jogging. I'd like to get Emilie involved more in exercise too. I'm thinking her and I could jog together. I haven't jogged outside since fall, so I think it'll be easier now.

Anyway, day 1, back on track. I know I can do it. I hate doing it though. Even getting in my fruits and veggies and allowing myself to indulge still has me feeling that I'm deprived. I don't like limiting my food intake. Its no fun. But knowing that when I finally reach goal I can eat a little more to maintain. Heck, this is the motivation I need! The faster I get to goal, the quicker I can eat more! LOL

Here's toasting you for a good week!

Just not for me

So I did the Wendie Plan this past week. I weighed in this morning. I stayed the same. Apparently the Wendie Plan didn't work for me. Either that or because I lost such a big amount last week, this week my body was compensating for itself. I'm disappointed. I started getting a bit teary. My scale here at home said I was down 3 pounds, and then nada. Nothing!

I really am okay with it though. I am disappointed because I thought this was really going to work for me. And maybe it really did, but I'm not convinced. This week I'll be doing my points "normally" as in, how I used to use them.

I'm having my siblings over tonight for dinner. And I'm making chicken parmigian. I'm really excited, because this is the first month of our new family dinners. We're going to go in birth order. Once a month, so when it comes down to it, I only have to serve dinner for 8 adults and 6 children three times a year.

Anyway, my exercise went well this week. Only made it to the gym twice, but it was better than nothing.

I'm outta here, hope everyone has a great weekend!

I talk too much!

So far, so good. I seem to say that alot lately. My weeks not only are counted by how many days left of school, of work, of exercise, but how many days I must still eat decent before I get to weigh-in. Each and every day and hour revolves around it. I'm not obsessed, just aware. I must plan out what goes in my mouth from morning till night.

Last week I followed a semi-wendie plan. Eat high points the first 2 days of the week, and then just have a few every day. This week I'm following it to the T. Day 1 - 37 points! Ate pizza that night for dinner (Saturday) and was completely stuffed with 8 points left for the day! It wasn't as easy as I thought to eat that much. I'm finally realizing that my stomach has shrunk. A serving size of something, anything, is actually satisfying. Its taken me awhile to figure this one out. People get into habits. It might be a habit to gorge oneself on their favorite food, because they can. Or something that is just SO GOOD that alot needs to be eaten. I'm still guilty of this sometimes. I think we all are. But alot of the time, eating and even losing weight, to how you picture yourself is like looking in a funhouse mirror. Food looks different, and it might even depend on the time of day. At times we feel strong and other times we feel defeated. I go day to day either feeling like I can do it forever, and at times saying "screw it".

I'm getting bored, I'm getting tired of the same 'ol thing. Day in and day out. Which is why I'm doing the Wendie plan. I technically am not having a hard time losing this weight. If I follow the program. Which I tend to stray from often. I'm trying to mix it up a bit. My points go, from Saturday to Friday, being 37,22,26,24,22,27,23. Gives me something to look forward to. I know that if I don't have enough points for something in particular, that I can wait a day or two and have it then. Granted, I don't even know if it'll work. Its supposed to work, but I won't be convinced until I step on that scale on Saturday.

Otherwise in my week I did the gym yesterday. 1/2 hour elliptical and free weights. I'm not that sore today either. We got more snow last night so I shoveled this morning. I drank 8 cups of water yesterday and so far today I've drank 2.

I had a non-scale-victory today! I have a pair of jeans from Weathervane back from 10 years ago. And they were actually comfortable! We're talking back when I met Chris, before I had 2 more kids, when I was only 20 years old! And I think even back 10 years ago clothes were sized differently than they are now. The size the jeans are... lets just say the same size now is too big on me in todays jeans!

So I'm working this program to death. I still have 7-8 pounds I want to lose by the end of April. Its looking good that I'll make that goal, at least I'm crossing my fingers that I will. I'm taking it one week at a time though. I tend to have one really good week, where I lose 3-5 pounds, the next week I lose 1-2 pounds, and then the third week I fall off the wagon and either stay the same or gain a little. And then I do it all over again.

Anyway, hope everyone has a great week!