Shopping is food for the soul

I actually did a bit of shopping for myself today. I was feeling a bit grumpy and Chris was home today, so I took off with Ryan in tow. Let me first start off by saying that I almost always put myself last. I think the only thing I truly do for myself is go to the gym. I've had the same pair of sneakers for the last 3 years and have been wearing the same spandex bike shorts and huge "old Amy" t-shirts, with the exception of one pair of baggy "old Amy" black capri's for working out. For the first 2 years I exercised at the Y and it really didn't matter to me what I wore because it was a really small exercise area and not many people. Not that I care to impress anyone, but now that I'm going to this fancy gym I'm feeling a tad bit self-conscience considering I'm surrounded by these skinny women in their coordinating activewear. Now of course, they aren't all skinny. There are some there like me.... that need to lose weight. But even they wear their coordinating outfits. So needless to say, I'm feeling a bit left out...lol Not that I need to be just like them or not, but the gym is packed almost all the time, and I want to "fit in". Nevermind the fact that I deserve to take good care of MYSELF once in awhile. So #1 priority was new sneaks. Found out I'm a size smaller than I thought I was. Either my feet shrunk because I weigh less or I've just been wearing the wrong size all along. I got the cutest pair of New Balance sneakers. With a little pink to make me feel girly. Normally I go for the darker colors.... navy blue, black, etc. I got myself some new socks (I know, its pitiful how little it takes to get me excited!) I also got 2 new pairs of bottoms, one capri and one pant(although The pants make my legs too hot) But I figure at least my legs won't freeze if I change at home before going to the gym. Also got 2 new t-shirts that are actually made for exercising! lol I intend to buy at least another pair of pants, but I'm so picky it takes me awhile. Anyway, exercise went well this week. Took the kids with me all week, burned alot of calories, but not looking at a favorable weigh-in tomorrow. This swelling is just killing me. I really need to make a point of going to get a second opinion because there has got to be some underlying reason this is happening to my body. Even with my water consumption, I still have edema in my legs. My kidney function has been checked and its fine, so I don't know what else it could be. Anyway, I should head off to bed so I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!

Never a relaxing vacation

The kids and I are off on vacation this week. Its wonderful not to have to get up early, but Chris is off on a "business vacation" Meaning he's gone this week for 3 days for work, but he went to Las Vegas, so we all know he's having fun while he's there! LOL I had court this week which went well and actually made it to the gym Monday. Had a decent workout but wasn't able to go on Tuesday. This morning I again took the kids to the gym with me, deposited them in the childcare room and had an awesome workout. While I was there, I signed up for another bodypump class for tonight. Which meant....I actually went to the gym TWICE in one day! Jen was on duty tonight in childcare so the kids were able to visit with her, and of course, the pump class kicked my ass once again! Food this week has been good. Last Saturday I went to my meeting but used a "no weigh-in pass" since I had indulged a wee too much on pizza and cake for the kids birthday. I know I was up a little last Saturday due to water retention, but the scale so far is being favorable towards me this week. I plan on going to the gym again tomorrow morning, depending on how my muscles feel. Last week when I took the pump class, I was sore for 4 days! One of the muscles in my inner arm hurt so bad, I couldn't even extend my arm all the way. Anyway, I plan on going to the casino this weekend unless the little snow we have heading for us prevents us from going. I've been home alone with the kids since Tuesday and Chris doesn't get home until tomorrow night. So, I hope everyone's having a great week.

Whew!! What a week!!

I have been running all week. Monday there was a snow delay for school, had to do a quick grocery shopping and then had a meeting with Ryan's therapist. Home after that for lunch, back to work, home to make dinner, bathe the kids, help with homework, dishes and bed. Tuesday was court, and that's another post in itself. Wednesday was the gym (finally!) and an hour at home to clean for the kids birthday today. I took Wednesday afternoon off for a "mental break". I really needed it. I'm staying strong because I need to, but inside I feel as if I'm this fragile person that will crack at any minute. Today was the gym again. Jen and I tried out BodyPump...and OMG, was it hard!! An hour long class using weights. And the lunges, my God, the lunges!! I hate lunges...LOL We were forewarned by others to start taking advil around the clock. I'm already sore...I'm sure that tomorrow I'll be moving slow! Came home with enough time to make Ryan and Emilie's cakes. Clean the kitchen, the livingroom and bathroom for their family birthday party tonight. Basically with the week I've had, my house has come last. I do enough to get by, but it pretty much looks like a tornado blew through. (This darn run on paragraph..blogger isn't letting me skip any lines!) Anyway, today was Ryan and Emilie's birthday! I CANNOT believe my kids are 11 and 12 years old today! It of course seems like it was just yesterday I gave birth. And to think I just got carded the other day ;) Ryan's a preteen, starting to get interested in girls. What the heck! lol Emilie has started in with the hormones already... I know how I was when I was a teenager and I just KNOW this is payback! LOL Anyway, WW is going ok. I probably blew it with the pizza and cake tonight but a new week restarts on Saturday, so I can't imagine that I've done a huge amount of damage. No gym tomorrow, even if I am able to walk. Hope everyone is having a good week!

Saturday weigh-in

Did great this week! Lost 4.0 pounds! I knew I did well and I'm actually surprised how easily I got through the week. Just need to do it again for another week...lol

In other news, after our winter temps being above average since before Christmas, we're back to winter! We're under a BLIZZARD WARNING for tonight and tomorrow!! 8-14 inches expected! I actually don't mind since its supposed to be winter. And its a little catch-up for us. Weird thing though.....Ryan pointed out that my daffodils are starting to come up! Must have been these warm temps since they're about 2 months ahead of schedule. Hopefully this snow doesn't kill them..lol

Turns out I'll be getting my workout tomorrow with all the shoveling that'll need to be done. Crazy stuff still going on here on the homefront, but I don't really want to go into detail here.

K, I hit the grocery store yesterday so that we're set with food for the next couple of days and I won't have to worry about grocery shopping tomorrow. The kids are so excited! Last year when we had a blizzard I remember the kids getting stuck in the snowdrifts up to their waist..fun times going on around here!

Hope everyone has a great week!

Deep sigh

Why didn't anyone tell me I was acting like a crazed idiot? LOL Feeling much better this week though. The scale showed me yesterday that I was 2 pounds less than my weigh-in, confirming for me that it was just water retention. Not so bad. I'm feeling good this week about all this weightloss stuff. Went to the gym yesterday (on a Sunday!!) and worked out with Jen and my soon to be SIL, Mercy. Had a great workout, did alot of weights. We went over to Jen's for the superbowl and had Roman's famous chili, which was awesome. Jen had some "bad" foods which I just cannot control myself around, but I came home last night and wrote everything down. I was back at the gym this morning, and will go back for everyday this week except for Friday because I babysit. I'm going to try to not use anymore flexies just in case I really used them all up. I'm going to also try not to eat any of my activity points, unless I really need to. I really am proud of how I'm handling all this uncertainty with my points. Normally I just say "screw it" since I've already "messed up", and then I'll eat whatever I want for the rest of the week. But my priorities are right in line. I want to be able to fit back into my spring and summer clothes by the time spring and summer rolls around again. Only 15-20 pounds, completely possible. Plus, Mercy's wedding is coming up in October and I want to be down to 160 pounds. Thats 30 pounds. Piece of cake! K, hope everyone has a great week!

Cover your ears and close your eyes

I'm in a pissy mood today. Did sooo well this week. So much exercise, ate good, and where does it get me? Nowhere. I gained .6lbs. Not much,I know. Still though-- I did good. This little gem of gaining this week is heightened because I feel shitty with how I look. My face looks like I'm 15 again. My hair has about 4 inches of dark roots grown out since April. To top it off, I really needed the motivation from the meeting today and it was about different food choices. Which would have been great if there wasn't a mother/daughter duo that thinks the meeting is all about THEM!! I'm all for listening to how they prepare spaghetti squash, but when this woman goes on and on about it for 15 minutes, it gets a little old. And then on top of that, the leader obviously doesn't want to appear rude, so she basically had a one on one conversation with these two women the entire meeting! Half of the room she talked to (where the two women were) and the other half she didn't even glance over at. It just wasn't what I needed for this week. And because I'm such a baby, I cried. I'm bummed out over everthing and just want to look like my old new self again. And when I try really hard and get no results that really drags a person down! Regardless, I'm going to keep at it though. Keep exercising, keep journaling, and maybe one of these days get a haircut. I know its possible for me for lose the weight but right now its feeling downright impossible.

Chugging along

Still going. Gained another 2 pounds last week. I've had enough of this stuff. And I keep saying that. I don't know why I've lost my motivation. Part of me wants to give up and most of me wants to keep struggling to eventually get down to my goal weight. One thing though...I've gained 20 pounds since April. Thats not just 5 pounds. And I saw(or ate) most of it on bit by bit. And didn't do anything about it. Christmas was coming, I was stressing, there were cookies and candies all over the place. Then the 2 weeks I didn't go to meetings, I gained over 9 pounds. That was a big chunk of it there. One thing its made me realize is this..... now I know how people gain all their weight back. If I wasn't catching myself right now, still struggling and not giving up, I'd quite possibly gain it all back! Its easier than I originally thought. I'm still exercising, tracking my points very well this week. Today at the gym I did my first class called Bodyflow. Combination of tai chi, yoga, and pilates. And omg, was it a challenge! I'm hurting all over. I thought it would be a piece of cake but I was wrong...LOL Now that I've gotten my feet wet, my next class will be Bodypump. The hour class is kind of daunting, but I won't know if I can do it or not unless I try. Anyway, sorry for the run on paragraph. I hope everyone has a great week!