Cheers to a new week!

First of all, thanks for the encouraging comments! I didn't chicken out this morning, and dragged myself to my meeting. The scale showed a gain, as expected. Up 3.8 pounds. Right where I thought I might be. My weight is now 175.2. I can't tell you how hard it was to change my stats on the side! But...on to a new week. We had a different leader this week who was extremely encouraging, so I'm going into this week very positive!

Another thing thats good is that I have been known, at times, to drop 4-5 pounds in a week. I didn't even drink my water these last two weeks so I know some of the gain is water weight. So... its completely possible for me to lose this coming week what I gained. I'm not going to be bummed if I don't but I want to...that will get me started on even ground again.

Now the only thing I'm contemplating is where to start my daily points. Anyone familiar with WW, knows that from 175-200lbs is 24 points a day, and 150-174 is 22 points a day. So, this is my problem. Technically I'm supposed to use 24 points a day now that I'm back up to 175. But, I had been eating 22 because before my weight was below 175. I find it very difficult to eat only 22 points a day, so I'm leaning towards the 24. But, if I lose alot this week, like I'm hoping, I should eat the 22 points. Following me? lol I think I might use 24 points through the weekend, and starting Monday, drop it down to 22 points. Starting back on Monday, you can find my ass back at the gym, so I'll also earn some activity points. So, it should be an easy week.

Okay, its raining here today, so no yard work, but I'll be running up and down the stairs doing laundry. Oh yeah, and I MUST drink my water today.

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Dreading weigh-in

I haven't been to WW in 2 weeks. I've only exercised at the gym once, but have spent some time outside gardening. I've made truffles, I've eaten truffles, and for some reason can't following my points for the week unless I start them on Saturday. So, like usually happens every few months (or weeks!) I've yet again fallen off the bandwagon. And I feel like shit. Just another reminder that I feel better when I eat better.

I don't want to go tomorrow. I'm so mad at myself...I'm actually quite furious. If I just had tried to follow my points I wouldn't be seeing the scale up a few pounds. I know its at least 3 or 4 pounds, but I'm crossing my fingers its not more than 5 lbs. As much as I want to lose the last 25 pounds, I want to stop. I've spent this week purposely eating things I wouldn't normally eat. I feel completely guilty about it but can't stop myself. I want to just eat what I want. Its like I'm feeling a noose tighten around my neck.

But I won't let that stop me. I WILL be at WW tomorrow morning, I will suck it up and step on that scale. I WILL NOT let the number on the scale scare me. And starting tomorrow I'll be back to counting my points, because I WILL make it to goal. I've gotta stop screwing around with all this. For me, its 2 steps forward, 1 step back. Maybe its that way for everyone. I mean, at least after I take that step back, I still keep going and take a few steps forward. Thats something at least.

I know I'm not perfect. No one is. But knowing I've spent the last few months only losing 5 pounds means I can try a little harder. I think tonight I'm going to write up an "action plan". I need to remind myself in writing how I'm going to do this. Remind myself what foods are the best "bang for my points" so to speak. Refocus on my goals. And yet again, recommit myself.

Wish me luck!

Yum....truffles!

Yeah, I'll admit it, truffles don't fit into my diet, but they are very tasty. I spent 3 days last week staying up till the wee hours of the morning making truffles. White chocolate, peanut butter, kahlua and coconut....oh my! Then I spent a night wrapping the truffles in cute little boxes, wrapping them in organza and sealing them with a wax seal.

I never did weigh-in on Thursday.... things were just too busy. I had so much going on that I didn't write anything down and probably didn't eat the best either. I'm trying despite the truffles to eat like I eat while on WW, and except for the truffles and the wedding reception, I'm not doing too bad. The scale says I've gained a pound or two but I'm not sweating it. Although now its 2 days after the wedding, and I'm still not writing things down, even though I should. But I might just wait through the week, and start fresh on Saturday.

Although I don't have any before and after pics up here, mostly because I can't figure out how to put up a link on the side, you can go over to my other website and see a few pics of what I look like now. I'm the bridesmaid that looks like the bride...lol I was told many many times by out of state relatives how they didn't even recognize me! And I can't even count how many times Jen's co-workers called me Jen's twin. (Although I wouldn't go that far! She's 15 pounds less than me!)

Anyway, because of Matthew having the chickenpox I don't even know if I'll make it to the gym this week, but tomorrow's supposed to be nice, and I'll be outside doing some yardwork. I'll try to update again!

Have a great week!

Weigh-in

Lost .8 this week. Almost down into the 160's! Not sure what this coming week holds in store for me. I'll be making truffles tomorrow (YUM!!) and I'll be trying to stay OP (on points) through Thursday at least. I'll be weighing in on Thursday morning, even though my sister wants to go weigh-in on Saturday morning!! Its her wedding day and I won't allow it! LOL

I'll be keeping up the water intake to hopefully ward off swollen ankles while in my strappy sparkly heels on Jen's wedding day. I'm hoping to make it to the gym, but I know that since the weather will be beautiful here all week, that I'll get some exercise in by working in my garden and taking walks with the kids.

For the wedding I won't be counting points. I know I'll probably gain because of it, but I'm going to enjoy myself. I've choosen the filet mignon for dinner, and there will be a chocolate fountain and belgian waffle station. Never mind the wedding cake. Gosh, my stomach is crying out in frustration. Its something admitting I want and intend to indulge, but my stomach will have other plans. I just CAN'T eat as much as I used to. (which is a good thing!) I better be careful or I'll be in a corner with a stomachache!

Anyway.... hope everyone enjoys their week!

Tummy tuck anyone?

I'm going to need one. Might as well perk up my chest while I'm at it. While this losing weight stuff is great and all, the skin is not. I must be one of those people who doesn't have elastic skin. 4 pregnancies along with gaining over 100 lbs has done alot to my body. I'm almost wishing I had the extra fat under my skin to make it not so loose. Not to go into too much detail, but I'm going to anyway, my tummy skin is starting to pucker. I've been exercising since BEFORE I started losing weight, and I'm losing it at a slow pace, but yet, I'm not seeing my skin bounce back. I have heard that it can take up to a year after losing weight for the skin to go back, but its not looking good. I'm boobs have gone through alot of trauma too. Breastfeeding 4 babies has my skin still there but the volume not. Nothing I can do about that either except utilize my push up bras.

But don't get me wrong. I love the fact that I'm losing this weight and becoming a healthier person. I'd much rather have this loose skin than pounds and pounds of fat, but looking at my naked body isn't doing my ego any good. I'm lucky enough though that its something I can cover up with clothes.

In the meantime, I'm saving my pennies for a tummy tuck and boob job in the future.

My matron of honor dress was altered today and its huge on me! 2-3 sizes will be taken off the dress. We went to Ryan and Emilie's science fair today at school and saw my SIL there, and she didn't even know it was me from a distance! She told me I was beautiful! And it felt awesome!

Although I didn't lose any weight this past week, I did get my period last Saturday so I now know why I didn't lose. So far this week, according to my scale, 2 pounds gone. Its hard this week because I have so much going on with the wedding that I haven't made it to the gym at all. At this point, I'm hoping at least for no gain. I'm sabotaging myself with food, but keep making each day a new day. Just keep starting over. Minimize the damage as much as possible. Next week, even though its the week of the wedding, Chris will be home and I'm going to try to go to the gym every morning. Just to keep me on track. Even if I have to go at 6 am!

Anyway, its extremely late for me, so I need to get some beauty sleep.... hope everyone has a great rest of the week!

Saturday weigh-in

Another week gone by, and no closer to my goal. Stayed the same this week. No loss, no gain. I'm disappointed but keep moving along. I admit that it may be from snacking on chocolate here and there, or possibly eating those cheddar triscuits last night. On to a new week. I'm a tad bit worried about tonight and counting points. I'll be at the casino and drinking and eating are part of the game. Obviously I won't have my handy book with me to write things down on, so I'll have to keep a running total in my head.

This week I HAVE to get to the gym more. I seem to be doing better with my cold, or possibly its just allergies. Seems to come in waves. The stuffy nose and the sneezing have lessened slightly today and I'm actually feeling alot better. My poor nose is all dry and red, so I've been trying to moisturize it between nose blowings.

I had wanted to write today about a kinda not talked about often subject...skin. But I'll have to leave that for another day. Its really starting to bother me, and unfortunately I'm stuck with it. Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Sunny skies

Gorgeous weather here..although not extremely warm-only in the 50's. We're supposed to get into the 60's tomorrow and its been wonderful to spend time outside. I didn't make it to the gym yesterday because of appointments but I did work in my flower garden after work, so thats a little bit of activity anyway.

Eating is going good so far this week. Its so hard to get my water in. I don't mind drinking it if I'm near a bathroom, but with work, appts, tanning, and such, I have to kinda pick the right times. And lately because I've been drinking it after work, I'm up 2-3 times in the middle of the night to go!

Speaking of food, strawberries are on sale this week at the grocery store. 2 lbs for $2. Limit of 2. Needless to say, strawberries are my favorite fruit and I'm thrilled that they're in season! I've gone back to the store twice already this week to get more, and between the kids and I they're gone in a day! I made the mistake of buying oatmeal raisin cookies while grocery shopping. I'm proud to say though, that I only had a 1/2 of a cookie, (3 pts each!) and sent the rest with Chris to work.

The rest of my week plays out like this: I was supposed to walk the track while Molly was at her ooey gooey class today but went to buy more strawberries instead. Tomorrow Chris is off, and instead of going to the gym in the morning, I'm going shopping to find something to wear for Jen's bachelorette party this weekend. But.... After work I'm doing my tanning and working out! I know that sometimes my schedule will interfere with the gym, but I need to at least get in 2 days. Plus I know working out in the garden and doing housework must burn some sort of calories.

I'm hoping I lose this week! If I can lose an average of 6 pounds a month, I can be to my goal by my birthday in July. With the wedding being my first mini goal, my birthday is my next goal to follow up with. I've come this far, so I know that I'll eventually make it!

Weekly weigh-in

It goes to show that a person who eats easter candy, and plenty of it, can lose weight! LOL I thought this was a bad week, because of the easter candy. I was so convinced of that fact, that yesterday I didn't even count points! But... I stepped on the scale today at my meeting, and I'm down 2.2 pounds! That means that I've had 2 weeks that I've lost, and I need to have another one. And it turns out when I posted my weight last week, I was wrong. I didn't have my weigh-in book in front of me, so my weight last week was 174.4 lbs. This week its 172.2 lbs. I still don't think I'm going to make it down to 165 by Jen's wedding, but I'm trying to make a goal to lose weight every single week until then. And the wedding is 3 weeks from today, and regardless I'm going to look good in my dress! Let's all cross our fingers that we all have a great week eatingwise, and exercisewise! Good luck!