Not good

As you can see, I only wrote out my menu for 3 days. 3 days! Thats it. It was boring me, thats all. I didn't do well eating and exercising this week past Wednesday. I gained 3.8 pounds! Didn't help that I ate french fries at 10 pm last night, or that I took the kids to a family picnic at the middleschool and ate a hamburger AND a hotdog.

I'm starting out fresh today, but don't know if I can do this weightloss and quitting smoking at the same time. Its not looking good. I will not accept gaining 10-20 pounds . I've worked too hard to gain it back so easily.

Here's the plan for this week. Suck on tic tacs instead of eating when I shouldn't be eating. Go to a Thursday meeting, to carry me through till Saturday morning weigh-in. Drink the goddamn water. And even though I'm exercising I'm still exhausted. But I have to at least get in 3 cardio days this week. And maybe , weather permitting, play in the backyard with the kids.

Should be a fun week. Can you tell I'm excited?!

Monday journal

30 min elliptical....400 calories burned, 4 activity points
20 min treadmill...120 calories burned, 1 activity point
20 min free weights

Start points...........................22 pts
coffee 1 21 pts
apple 1 20 pts
activity points +2 22 pts
6 triscuits 2 20 pts
salad w/crabmeat
and croutons 3 17 pts
3 mini peppermint
patties 3 14 pts
2 grilled fillets 4 10 pts
6 oz. roasted
potatoes 3 7 pts
3 oz. fries 3 4 pts
butternut squash 0 4 pts
sugarfree pudding 1 3 pts
14 triscuits
(2 servings) 4 -1pt
coffee 1 -2 pts

2 Flexpoints used for the day.. Not bad considering it was my first day of quitting smoking.

13 flexpoints used for the week. Doing good so far, and I'm proud to say I haven't even peeked at the scale!

Sunday journal

Not happy with this morning... we only have full fat creamer for my coffee. I usually use the fat free, but I'm going to start today's journal on here now, and later on tonight, fill in the rest.

Sunday 22 pts

Coffee, 2 cups 2 20 pts
fruit cup 1 19 pts
6 triscuits 2 17 pts
bagel w/ICBITB 6 11 pts
15 cheese ravioli 5 6 pts
4 oz italian bread
w/lf cheese 9 -3 pts


3 Flexpoints used for the day... I might have some strawberries or a mini milky way, not sure yet. Still going strong on the eating. Even resisted the full fat icecream cones the kids had for dessert!

I'm going to try

And write everything I'm eating this week to keep me accountable. Here. Mostly for myself. Keep in mind that weekends aren't the healthiest for me.

Saturday
22 pts
Coffee 1 21 pts
Donut 6 15 pts
Pizza(5 pieces!) 21 -6 pts

6 Flexpoints used

Geez, its scary to see how much pizza I can actually still eat! I was stuffed though, but pizza is my all time favorite food. And to use only 6 flexpoints on a Saturday is really good for me. Sometimes its been as high as 15 for the day!

Saturday weigh-in

This week was a good one according to the scale. Down exactly 2 pounds. Of course, it was probably closer to 3 pounds before I ate the cake and had my mini binge yesterday.

I had a talk with my leader after the meeting because I've been sabotaging myself. I stick with the plan through probably Thursday and then let loose. I figure I can't gain much by eating that cake or handful of crackers or leftover french fries from the kids dinner. And while I don't think it affects my weigh-in that much if I'm down a few pounds, because I'll still lose, it does affect my weigh-in if I only lose 1 pound. And 1-2 pounds is average per week. But its sad for me to say that I weigh now what I weighed almost 3 months ago. I'm not getting anywhere! Its so frustrating.

So this week, starting today, there's no scale for me. I'm hiding it. When I go to the gym I'm not going to even look at it. I need to refocus on eating healthy regardless of what the scale says. What is really what it comes down to. Being healthier. I have to admit that I feel the scale factors into it. Of course it does. But there are going to be weeks that I lose an inch or two but not necessarily lose on the scale. And thats what I need to focus on. What really will happen for me (I'm hoping) is that if I focus on my eating and not on the number on the scale, I won't binge eat on Friday.

I'm going to try this for this week and if I'm successful I'll do it for another week. Its been suggested to me that I try the core plan but I'm not confident enough to do that yet. Flex seems to work for me when I work it.

Have a great weekend!

Doing good

Didn't go to the gym yesterday but I think overall I'm doing good this week. I think I've lost some weight, and for the exception of a piece of cake tonight, I'm sticking to my points.

I've got to guzzle lots of water tomorrow though. Not doing so well on that. But I'll be going to the gym and I have been doing some gardening so hopefully this weeks weigh-in will be a good one.

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

In a better place

After looking at my weigh-in book, I found that I only gained .2...not bad. Really only a fraction of a pound and considering later on Saturday afternoon I got my period, I just may have lost something last week.

Today, the beginning of my workout week.....30 min elliptical, 15 min. weights

Better than nothing, right? lol

Food choices are going well. Since I now don't have as many hormones running through my body, I'm back to being "in control". Not too snacky, making good food choices. Let's hope I can make it through the week this way!

Another weigh-in

I'm not in a good place this week. I gained. Can't remember how much, either .4 or .6.... not enough to be a big deal, but for right now I don't have the energy to change my stats on the side. I'll be back for a better post later.

Slip,Slip, Sliding away

The food intake isn't going that great. I seem to do okay on the days when I exercise, but my "off days" kinda have me getting carried away. And then I stopped at Dunkin' Donuts to get a latte, and get a few munchkins for Molly, along with 3 for me. only 3. But, they were kind enough to give me 5! I think it was a sign ;) I was obviously meant to eat all 5. And thats exactly what I did. I'm ashamed. I'm pissed. I have absolutely no restraint when it comes to sweets. Although I'm pms'ing, so I think that may have something to do about it. Really!

The gym's been good. I've stepped up the cardio a little. Instead of just 30 min. elliptical, I've added an additional 20 min. I'm alternating it between the bike and the treadmill, but leaning more towards the bike because of my hip pain. I've also been doing alot of yardwork, so I think that must give me some exercise. I know there's a way I could count it as some activity points, but not sure how. If anything, its balancing my eating habits. lol

Tomorrow morning I'm at the gym again, and then attending the Mother's Tea in Molly's class. See, more eating opportunities!

Have a great Friday!

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Doing good with eating so far this week. I've come to the conclusion that I need to stop buying one particular snacky food though.....triscuits. Not just regular triscuits, but the cheddar ones. They are soooo good. The problem is, even though they're really high in fiber, the serving size is only 6 triscuits! I mean, when they're that good, I can eat the whole box. So when it comes down to it, I ate about 12 points worth of triscuits today. And I get 22 points a day! lol Good news is, the box is almost gone, so by tomorrow I won't have to worry about it anymore.

I'm so sore from the gym yesterday. And then to add to it, while at the grocery store today, I knocked my kneecap out of whack. When I knocked it against the cart while unloading it, I grabbed my knee and actually had to pop my kneecap back into position! I sat on the edge of the car for a good 10 minutes crying like a baby. And it still hurts (wonder why?). But tomorrow when I go back to the gym I'm hoping it feels better because I really need to get 3 full workouts in this week. And remember my hip problem I was talking about? I still haven't gone to the Dr's for it, although I almost made an appt. Just don't know whether or not to go to my physician or a chiropractor. My Mom suggested the chiropractor but while reading up on my insurance and coverage, I'm confused as to what they would and wouldn't cover. So I'm hesitating to make an appt because I don't want to get stuck with charges I wouldn't be aware of going in.

Back to my countdown for the week. 4 days down, 3 to go. Over half way there, baby!

The weather this weekend is looking great so we're tinkering with the idea of going hiking. That would be awesome exercise and it really would be some great "family time"

Anyway, thats all for now... hope everyone has a great rest of the week!

Back in the groove of things

This weekend was so hard for me. Usually I make a smooth transition from "binging" or not following points to back to journaling and drinking my water. But for some reason I was rebelling. A part of me didn't want to have to worry about watching what I ate, and a part of me didn't want to "deny" myself certain things that I could eat but really shouldn't. But I made it through.... using about half of my flexpoints but I got through it.

I got myself straight to the gym after dropping Molly off and did 30 min elliptical, 20 min. treadmill and then a 1/2 hr free weights. I left that gym feeling completely enpowered. I'm in a place right now that has me feeling I'm on top of the world. To top it off, I've already had 6 cups of water today, only had an apple for breakfast, therefore leaving me with many points left for the day. Right now I'm eating a huge salad with my homemade croutons, imitation crabmeat, cucumbers and red peppers. I'm trying to focus on eating real foods. Trying to stay away from the granola bars for breakfast and instead going for the fruit. Salad with a possible sandwich for lunch, and a healthy dinner, which I'm usually good at anyway.

And go figure, whether from water weight or not, my scale and the gym scale is already showing me down almost 2 pounds. Its amazing how much I can feel the difference in my clothes too. Just gaining a few pounds makes my pants a bit snug.

Cheers to a good week everyone!