Back to meetings

This morning I went back to a meeting. I've been saying for a few weeks now that I'm going to start going on Thursday mornings, but I keep making excuses, so for now I'm just going to keep with Saturday's. I bought a 1 month pass, with the thought being that for the next month I can't waste money and I have to follow the WW plan. I also requested a new weigh-in book, so that I have a brand new book with a brand new start weight, and a brand new 10% to aim for. And I'm not going to say what my 10% goal is either...lol But its not bad and will bring me pretty close to my lowest weight. But.... I'm trying not to think that way. I'm just giving this 4 weeks. 4 weeks to get back in the swing of things. Otherwise, I did a new class at the gym this week. One thing I did do well this past week was that I exercised for the last 5 out of 6 days. Last night I did a class called "Jam". Dancing,dancing, and more dancing. It was alot of fun! Gotta keep it fun, or else I'm not going to want to do it.

Good news

He's in, he's in, he's innnnnnn!!!!!! We just got the call today. The director called and offered Ryan a part, and we're all so excited!! Now it means weekly practices, and starting the end of November, 21 performances within the span of 3 weeks. Its going to be interesting, thats for sure. As soon as I hopefully get a written schedule of the performances, I'll be coordinating within the family, who's going to watch the kids on performance nights and days. According to the teacher at the auditions, parents are expected to be backstage for every performance. Which means I'll probably miss a bit of work here and there. But.... it'll all be worth it. We're just so thrilled that Ryan has this opportunity!!

The waiting is driving me crazy!

Emilie received a letter in the mail yesterday from the Ivoryton Playhouse. She didn't get in. But..... its Tuesday night now and Ryan still hasn't gotten his letter.... rejection or acceptance. Which makes me wonder. Either he wasn't picked and just hasn't gotten his letter yet, or he was picked and hasn't been contacted yet. I'm trying to be positive yet at the same time, not get Ryan's hopes up. Because as far as I know, it could go either way. I'm hoping for good news. Please, please, please, this would be so GOOD for Ryan.

muscles and music

I went to the gym this week..... 2 times, even! I did cardio and upper body weights on Monday, and cardio and lower body weights on Tuesday. Its Thursday now and I'm still walking around like a little old lady. Muscles so sore. I FORGOT I actually had these muscles in my body. Baby steps. In other news, I took Ryan and Emilie tonight for an audition for A Christmas Carol, in a town nearby. A quick 5 minute singing audition, for the chorus. I asked a few questions, since one of the middleschool teachers was there, and was told that there were about 40 kids who auditioned, and they're casting between 12-14 kids. So, a chance. It'll be interesting to say the least if they do get cast. Rehearsals are only once a week, but there are 21 performances within a 3 week period. The kids really do love to sing, I just hope they were good enough for the auditions. Whether they get cast or not, it was a good experience for them. Cross your fingers though that they get to be a part of it all! Anyway, thats all for now. I'm going to watch E.R. and then hit the sack. Hope everyone has a great Friday!

Almost there

I'm on my way back, so to speak. Almost in the right frame of mind to focus and do this again. I ate halfway decently today and actually took my diuretic , which will help big time with the swelling and water retention, even though it hasn't been that bad. What really brought the lack of focus back was trying to find a pair of jeans in my closet that would fit for the chilly 40- something temps in the wee hours of the mornings lately. Yeah, I'm shameful to say that none of my jeans fit! I can't even zip them! I have one pair, an "old pair", that probably will fit, but they're at my sister's house, which doesn't really help! Talk about depressing :( One of my co-workers was honest with me when I asked, and told me that he can tell I've gained weight. And I seriously am glad that he was frank with me. I know I look bad. (thats what I say, not what he says) I'm depressed because nothing fits me. I need to do something about it....NOW. So, I'll be going to a new WW meeting, on Thursday mornings, since its been too hard to drag myself and the kids out the door on a Saturday morning to go to my regular meeting. It'll be a fresh start. I may even ask for a brand new weigh-in book. Pretend like I'm starting over completely. I want to see my 10% goal in writing, so I can aim for it. If I focus on this, I could potentially be back to my low weight by the end of the year. Of course, I may be getting ahead of myself, seeing as there are holidays thrown in there every month. But I have to do this for myself...I feel like shit and don't like being at this weight. Oh, and I'll remind myself right here, right now, that I need to go back to the gym, since I've yet to do that either.

9/11

5 years ago our lives changed forever. Never forget.

Still here

I haven't posted lately because there's nothing to post. Same 'ol shit, different day. Just wanted to let anyone who reads know that I'm still around. Have a good one!