I'm still around. Kinda pointless to write about the same old things..... not keeping track, not exercising, but wanting to. But I have to soon.

Get with it, Amy!!

I.Must.Go.To.The.Gym. (I want desperately to wear the new babydoll top I bought the other day!) Feeling so fat :( Lost 3 pounds last week, but this week isn't going so well. I'm trying so hard to keep it all together. Maybe with the new summer schedule I can get back on the ball. Wish me luck!

Yada yada yada

What can I say that hasn't already been said? Diet sucks. Back on track AGAIN this week, but at weigh-in I had another gain. Of course, the gain was only 2 pounds and considering I decided to wear jeans instead of lightweight cotton shorts, most of the gain could be from my jeans. Of course, I was all bloated from pms, so I can figure that in too. Anyway, went to the gym this morning, poor effort though. 1/2 hour on the treadmill, and then weights. Tomorrow is day 4. I tend to fall apart on day 4. I'm staying off the scale again this week. Damn scale just screws me up. Anyway, have a good week everyone!

I went, I saw, I suffered

Actually went to WW today. I really, really, had to force myself to go. It would have been so easy to skip it again, and take another week off. But I didn't. Dragged myself there, made the weigh in lady block my book so I couldn't see it. Sat through the meeting, and got alot out of it. Feeling positive once again. Over 2 years into this and its still a struggle to get started back on my journal. But I did it. I wrote everything down today that I ate. Its hard because when I write it down, I actually censor myself on what I eat. Which , I suppose, is the point of it all...lol Weigh in wasn't that bad. I took a peek at my book once I got home. Only up 4 pounds. Only. I suppose that's better than the 8-9 pounds I had been up. But last time I weighed in was 3 weeks ago, I think, and at that weigh in I had gained 4 pounds too. 8 pounds up in the last month....damn, not good. Scale's going the wrong way, but I'm back with it. Again. If I want to wear my old summer clothes I better stay on track! Rainy here, but I hope everyone is having a great weekend!

I suck

Still not doing much better with all this WW stuff. I can't seem to get my shit together. Until a couple of days ago, I hadn't even been taking my diuretic. I've gained a good 8 pounds, and I know most of it is the fluid, and I am seeing the scale go down since back on the diuretics, but I'm also still on the steroid for my eye. My sister reminded me that the steroid could possibly be contributing to my weight gain. I had forgotten about that! Only 3 more days on the steroid drop, and then I'll be put on a milder steroid ointment. I did go to the gym once this week. I was supposed to go today but decided to come home.... I need to change around the boys' room. I met my sister at the gym yesterday and she pissed me off, so after a few minutes on the elliptical I told her I was done and got off and left! Anyway, that's all for now. I didn't even go to the WW meeting last week, but this week I'm going to drag my sorry ass there and face the scale. Hopefully by then I can get my stuff together and get back down to business.