Back to the weightloss grind

What a vacation from dieting. Eating whatever I wanted, in whatever quantity I wanted was wonderful, yet disqusting at the same time. I hate it. I hate feeling like crap because of the crap I put in my body. I still haven't figured out the reason for my binge eating. My jeans are tight, my reflection is unbearable. I wonder if I learned my lesson this time?

I went back to WW today. I never left, just took a little siesta considering I only missed one meeting on New Years' Eve day. But the damage was massive. I'm going to be totally upfront and honest on my true weight. Ready?

192.8 lbs!!

Way too close to 200 lbs for my comfort! Realistically my legs and ankles look like sausages though, so I think that at least 6 out of the 9 pounds I'm up (since only 2 weeks ago!) is water weight. Already, one day later, after drinking water, I'm down 2 pounds.

I drank another 10 cups today and kept within my points. Yesterday was especially difficult counting points because I wasn't used to it. I had to get back into the groove of things. But today seems to have been better.

Our challenge started this week as well. My future SIL Mercy made up an envelope with inspirational quotes on it. That will be the envelope that everyone's $2 goes into. She also added a picture of each of us in our "fat" stage. The picture she had of me I had never seen before!! I stood in line at WW waiting to get weighed, looked at this picture and actually started tearing up. I looked like shit. I never want to go back there again. I've asked Mercy to scan the picture and send it to me, so hopefully at some point I'll post it.

Anyways......back on track. I'm really gung ho with this challenge. I'm excited, and I really want to win...lol

I've made a promise to myself that I WILL make it to goal in 2006. I'm 47 pounds away, and thats completely doable.

I'm off to find some new recipes... hope anyone who reads has a wonderful week!