183.6 lbs
Holy shit! Didn't weigh-in last week, so in 2 weeks I gained 5 lbs exactly! This crap has got to stop.
The thing is, I don't want to do this WW stuff anymore. I hate the thought of counting points again, hate the thought of having to exercise.
Yet, I hate weighing what I do. I hate the shitty feeling I have from not exercising, from not eating healthy.
Back when I weighed 247 and started losing the weight, I was happy to get down to 200 lbs. When I got below 200 I was even happier. I felt sexy, I felt more comfortable in my own skin. Then when I got down to my lowest of 171, I felt downright skinny. In a sense. I was still unhappy with how I looked, but in comparison of what I looked like at almost 250, it felt good. I was a tad bit more comfy wearing form fitting clothes. Now that I'm up an addition 13 pounds from that point, I might as well be 247 again!
I feel like shit, and that means I need to do something about it. A part of me doesn't want to though.
So, starting today, even though I weighed-in yesterday, I'm back on the bandwagon. I need to get SERIOUS about this. How many times have I said that already???
Sometime this week I'm joining a new gym. Its too inconvenient for me to go back to the Y, since Molly no longer goes there for preschool. Plus, my SIL is a member of this new gym, and I'm convincing my sister to join. Therefore I'll have 2 workout buddies. Which means I'm almost always guaranteed to have someone to MAKE ME GO!! If I have to go 5 days a week to stay on track, thats what I'll do. They have t.v.'s on their treadmills, which is a plus, just in case I need to go alone, and the membership fee includes all classes, which I could use to shake things up a bit.
I've got to get this extra weight off!
On the nonweightloss front. Don't know if anyone reads this blog or not, but just found out yesterday from my SIL that the story about her brother is in the new Woman's World. I had wrote about it in my other blog, about how her brother needed a liver transplant after a bout with the flu. He had a defect from birth and ended up being very close to death. His mother, Karen, had donated a part of her liver and now he's doing so much better! So, if you read Woman's World, and there's a story in there titled "What would you do if your child had only 72 hours to live?", its the same story I wrote about months back. And he's doing much better. Really strange though to actually read a story where I know the people and I know what happened in "real life". You can find some of the posts in my February archives.
Thats all for now. I'm going to try to get back to writing here a bit more often. And even if I write about how I hate all of this losing weight stuff all the time, I think it'll make me more accountable for my actions.
The thing is, I don't want to do this WW stuff anymore. I hate the thought of counting points again, hate the thought of having to exercise.
Yet, I hate weighing what I do. I hate the shitty feeling I have from not exercising, from not eating healthy.
Back when I weighed 247 and started losing the weight, I was happy to get down to 200 lbs. When I got below 200 I was even happier. I felt sexy, I felt more comfortable in my own skin. Then when I got down to my lowest of 171, I felt downright skinny. In a sense. I was still unhappy with how I looked, but in comparison of what I looked like at almost 250, it felt good. I was a tad bit more comfy wearing form fitting clothes. Now that I'm up an addition 13 pounds from that point, I might as well be 247 again!
I feel like shit, and that means I need to do something about it. A part of me doesn't want to though.
So, starting today, even though I weighed-in yesterday, I'm back on the bandwagon. I need to get SERIOUS about this. How many times have I said that already???
Sometime this week I'm joining a new gym. Its too inconvenient for me to go back to the Y, since Molly no longer goes there for preschool. Plus, my SIL is a member of this new gym, and I'm convincing my sister to join. Therefore I'll have 2 workout buddies. Which means I'm almost always guaranteed to have someone to MAKE ME GO!! If I have to go 5 days a week to stay on track, thats what I'll do. They have t.v.'s on their treadmills, which is a plus, just in case I need to go alone, and the membership fee includes all classes, which I could use to shake things up a bit.
I've got to get this extra weight off!
On the nonweightloss front. Don't know if anyone reads this blog or not, but just found out yesterday from my SIL that the story about her brother is in the new Woman's World. I had wrote about it in my other blog, about how her brother needed a liver transplant after a bout with the flu. He had a defect from birth and ended up being very close to death. His mother, Karen, had donated a part of her liver and now he's doing so much better! So, if you read Woman's World, and there's a story in there titled "What would you do if your child had only 72 hours to live?", its the same story I wrote about months back. And he's doing much better. Really strange though to actually read a story where I know the people and I know what happened in "real life". You can find some of the posts in my February archives.
Thats all for now. I'm going to try to get back to writing here a bit more often. And even if I write about how I hate all of this losing weight stuff all the time, I think it'll make me more accountable for my actions.
posted by Amy at 9/11/2005 06:14:00 AM
3 Comments:
I read this blog! Losing weight is weird isn't it? Part of me is so excited to see my body change and the other part is just scared because I've been a fatty for so long. Good luck with getting back on the bandwagon :)
I feel your pain. I think the fat fairy has been making her rounds and leaving everyone with unwanted lard. She left me 10.5 over the past two weeks. So when I say I understand, I mean that literally! Ha! I want to re-join a gym this week, too, or at least get my ass moving once a day. You know, I want to do that healthy thing called exer...what was it again?
Oops, not 10.5 over the past two weeks. More like 5.5 over the past two weeks, but 10.5 total. Brain fart, sorry.
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